sad realization

here is my dilemma.

i want a fabulous wedding.
oh and i want an unique wedding.
different from the corny, korean traditional christian weddings
i have been to.

however.
for my wedding
i have to accommodate over 200 ppl
i think the number can be as much as 300.
(this number cant be flexible for various reasons)

on top of that
the wedding needs to incorporate
american traditions
along with korean traditions
also throw in "korean-american" expectations to the mix

on even more top of that
i have to have some sort of ceremony in korea
for his family and my family
but mainly for his parents and sister who reside there.

and in reality..
we have to buy a house.
we have to go on a honeymoon.
more sooner than later, the boy needs a new car.

sooooooooooooooooooooooo
it is slowly dawning on me that my fabulous dreamy wedding
will be non existent, bare, and cheap.
bc i refuse to go into debt
and the other stuff is more of a necessity
(vs this wedding want)

how sad.